I trained Muay Thai this morning. Tonight, I sparred with my boxing coach.
After sparring, I felt something I haven’t felt before.
Peace, contentment, joy.
I always had this nagging sense of trying to prove to myself that I am tough. That I can handle my own.
I train hard trying to overcome that feeling of insecurity. That’s why I did two sessions today. I felt like I needed it. It is such a weird feeling – that feeling of inadequacy.
But then right after sparring, I feel completely at ease. I am good. I know I can handle myself. I know I can learn anything and become good at something. I already have the blueprint. Obsessively learn. Get feedback. Be intentional.
I will still keep training. I enjoy the process. But now, I move with a little more lightness. A little more freedom.
I have nothing left to prove. I did it.